*UPDATE*

Sorry I haven't updated in a while, but I warned you that I wouldn't be able to.....I don't even know where to start, lol. Well, the day I have been waiting over 2 years for, has come and gone...I finally had my eye surgery on Monday. I was a nervous wreck. We got there around 7:40am and we didn't have to wait very long. ******WARNING****** I'm about to describe in detail, my surgery. If you are squeamish, please stop reading now. Ok, so- they called me back and started putting several types of numbing drops in my eye. Then, they had to put a needle full of local aneastethic? directly into my eyelid. Then they walked out of the room to allow my numbing agents time to start working. That's when I heard Matt tell the dr that I was very nervous and then, and ONLY THEN, did the dr tell the nurse to get me something to help me relax. I am completly confident that they weren't going to give me anything at all!!!!!! I find it crazy that they could not see my uncontrollably shaking hands. Well, the nurse came back with- wait for it- 5mg of valium!!! I'm not a valium expert, but I knew that wasn't going to be enough....and it sure wasn't. I didn't feel any different. I was still just as nervous and shaky, but I didn't want to sound weird asking for more, so I prayed that I would be strong enough to get through it. Anyway, this is the gross, graphic part of the story, so I will remind you of the earlier warning. The dr and nurse came back in, reclined my chair, shone the biggest, brightest light in my eyes and gave me 2 tension balls to squeezee. Then, they told me to look down and then the dr got some sort of tool to flip my eyelid and then hold it that way. Then, I heard scissors snipping the muscle under my eyelid. I believe it's called the levator muscle. She snipped it from one corner to the other. As she was snipping, the nurse was using a machine that I don't remember the name of to burn what the dr was cutting to stop the bleeding. I could hear and feel my eyelid muscle being snipped and burnt. I told you it was gross. Ugh. It makes me nauseous thinking about it. So, then they left me in the room for a moment, went to talk about geese and then came back to check me. Dr decided she needed to do a little more. So, so flipped, snipped and burnt again. Only this time, I guess some of the medicine had worn off because the pain I felt when they were burning it was unlike anything I had ever felt before. I started crying and so they gave me yet another needle in my eyelid. Proceeded. Left room. Came back. Decided she still was.not.done!!!! She did a little bit more then she finished and moved me into another room where they forced me to eat a graham cracker so I could take pain medicine. Then, they called Matt in to sit with me for a little bit so they could ice my eye and make sure there was no excessive bleeding. Then, they patched me up and sent me home. It was awful!!!! I am so grateful to be done with it. Oh my gosh, you have no idea!!! I went home and for some reason was still having a little pain so I took 3 tylenol and that was it for the day. As soon as Sam and my mom went home, I was out for the rest of the day. So now- 3 days later, all I'm left with is a tiny bit of swelling and a black eye. I have to put ointment into it twice a day for now, and that's about all. I'm very happy with the way it turned out and that I don't have a scar. I guess that's the benefit of doing the work on the inside of the lid. Anyway, enough about that. I don't really have any kid updates or pictures. We're very excited about the nice weather and we got ice cream from the ice cream truck for the first time this year. We went to Target earlier to pick up a birthday gift for one of the kids' friends and then we came home and played outside with bubbles allllll day. Emily is very excited for easter egg hunting at Storybook land and to go swimming. Every day this week that the sun was out, she put her bathing suit on and bugged Matt and I incessantly to set up the pool. Lol. Well, the kids are done their ice cream now so I have to clean them up and get them ready for bed. Hopefully, I'll have more pleasant updates and pictures soon! If not, enjoy the sunny weekend!!!

ONE WEEK...

that I hope will end very soon!!! This is an awful week and the worst is yet to come. It started last Friday. Emily was complaining of pain on the back left side of her mouth. I assumed it was her 6 year molars coming in since she was early in losing her two bottom front teeth. So, I gave her some oragel and tylenol, and sent her to school. She was up all night because of the pain and tylenol wasn't helping much. She then woke up saturday morning with the left side of her face swollen. So i called the doctor and he was pretty sure it was a canker sore, even though i told him there wasn't one. He said if she gets a fever to take her to the emergency room. I thought, given the swelling, he would prescribe some antibiotics, but he didn't. So, sunday she woke up with a, just as swollen, if not more swollen face. So i gave the dentist a call. He said she would not be swollen because of molars coming in and that she most likely has an infection. He prescribed amoxicillin which almost immediately helped to reduce the swelling. So monday morning, I brought her to the dentist and he took xrays of the sore side and then called me into the room to discuss things. He told me the last thing that I ever expected to hear.........that the tooth he already did a filling on is very badly infected and needs to be extracted. He proceeded to explain that sometimes when they do a filling so deep, it can rarely cause an infection like that, but that it usually happens within the first couple of weeks........SHE HAD THIS FILLING A YEAR AGO!!!!!! So, imagine my confusion/frustration. I started asking a million questions. It's a back tooth so thankfully, you won't be able to see it!!!! So, then i guess next week sometime, she will have to go back and get a small space maintainer put in, to hold the spot for the adult tooth, so that her teeth dont shift. I came home and cried my eyes out to Matt. i was so upset. The dentist said the root is so small, that it will come out so easily and provide her with immense relief. We have to wait until Thursday, because he said it was very badly infected and he wanted to continue on the antibiotic for a couple of days. He said they don't do root cananls on baby teeth, because they usually fail and you have to end up extracting the tooth anyway. If i could go back in time, I never would have handed baby Emily the toothbrush and let her do it on her own. After she got the cavities filled i have been crazy with the kids' teeth. They don't eat any chewy candy's or gummy snacks, I brush their teeth (not them), and i floss all the teeth i can. So, that was bad day number one. I do feel better about 2 things........1- the dentist said she will probably feel so much better than worse and 2- that it's a back tooth and you can't see it!!!!  Bad day number two is going to be Thursday when they pull it. Bad day number three is going to be on Friday when i have my eyelid surgery. And guess what everybody, I only get a valium!!!!! Yes- no iv sedation or anything. i will be sitting upright in a chair. AWAKE. FULLY AWARE. when i start to think about, I feel like im going to have a heart attack. I feel really bad for Matt, because he has to come with me. I'm terrified. I don't understand how they think one can stay awake and relaxed with a knife coming at their eye. I'm going to Will's eye and know that I am in good hands, but still. Anyway, i have to stop thinking about it because I don't want to!!! lol. And to top it all off, a winter storm is coming and it's supposed to snow thursday and friday and i don't want to put off any of the above mentioned tasks because I don't want to worry about them anymore. So, you now know why i want this week to be over.

On a lighter note, Aunt Sammy and Jordan came down on sunday and stayed until Tuesday. We had alot of fun. Jordan is so, so big compared to Nicholas. I cant believe the difference. He also now has a full head of dark brown hair. Last time i saw him (about 3 months ago), he had a tiny amount of blond hair. It's amazing how much babies change in such a short amount of time. He is a crazy, loud, mischievious, little man who is almost always doing something bad, but I love and miss him to pieces. I will post pictures when I have time. I have to get the kids a snack!!! Thanks for letting me vent!!!